“I can do it”—perseverance—is an unlikely companion to depression. I’m confessing to my journal that I’m depressed because I can’t escape into a BIG dose of Ancestry. Correction: I “can” but I won’t. I must “downsize.”

Aluminum cans first thing in the morning—for pop tabs for Ronald McDonald House. Dark clouds, and gloomy, with the threat of rain so I moved to the carport. Next, I dusted books and videos and placed them in separate boxes. One box with Bibles, books, etc., for Love Packages. Secular books, and videos, in a box for the local library (for fund-raising book sale). In another area, there are items that will (eventually) go to the local Habitat for Humanity ReStore. ~~ Thunder—and rain—at ten-fifteen. ~~ Now some “indoor” projects which include this blog message and a second mug of coffee. ~~ I can do it. (I keep telling myself “You can do it.”)

Postscript at 12:20 PM. “Severe weather”  according to the noon news.

“The old lady”  doesn’t know how to approach projects “with moderation.” The outdoor activities have drained already limited strength and energy. NOT COMPLAINING!! This is the journal and this is the comment for Wednesday afternoon. Confession: “The old lady”  would love to rush full speed to research and documentation in Ancestry.com.  “Downsizing” MUST be the priority.

Time to save the pop tops for Ronald McDonald House.

There are several more boxes of poems. At one time, I planned to add the poems to a website, indexed by topic. I love poems of faith but haven’t the time (or energy) for everything on my “to do” list. Now, time and energy must go into downsizing!! These… and more with go to the local library for their fund-raising book sale.

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Dirty old woman.

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However, in a very vivid dream, I was documenting LOTS of information about James Richard Tiner. There were valuable sources for the man–and his wife. I awakened at 2:00 AM and confess to the strong temptation to go to Ancestry.com, to the family tree of my friend, “Mr. Red,” and see if my dream provided useful details. However, with willpower, I am ignoring Ancestry because dozens of projects demand my time and attention!!